All about Jenn

“Mother’s cannot give from a depleted source. “

I am depressed. I am anxious. But most importantly I am a mother. A mother with depression and anxiety.

Why do this?

• Because I know Im not the only mama who struggles
• Because I dont believe that I have gone through these hardships for nothing, I want to use my struggles to help other mamas like me!

I have two beautiful boys that I love more than anything in this world. No one in this world could love them like I do. So what could I possibly have to be depressed about, right? Well life wasn’t always so great, bad enough that I got diagnosed later with PTSD. PTSD isnt just for combat soldiers I found out. I met my high school sweetheart, got married and had these 2 beautiful boys. My heart is so full of love, but I still cry almost everyday. I cant just “snap out of it” I cant “let the past go”. Im currently writing this at 3 am, so I can safely say that Im not sleeping well either. I am not saying that I know all about depression and anxiety and that everything I say on here is accurate. I really want to use this blog to just vent the everyday frustrations of being a mom with mental illness.

I am doing my best daily to keep my tiny humans alive. I am not a perfect mom, but Im trying. I may not have my ducks in a row…or even all in the same pond, but I get up every morning and try. I probably drink too much coffee and I use “the mom bun” as my everyday look, I cry secretly in the bathroom, my kids eat processed food and sometimes have cereal for dinner, but like I said earlier…Im doing my best!

I hope that other moms that read this blog find comfort in the fact that IM NOT OKAY, AND THATS OKAY!!! Its okay for you to not be okay too!